One of the hardest things about living with depression and anxiety is that you feel so alone. You could be at a party surrounded by people you love but yet feel so alone and sad. So many people around the world struggle with depression and anxiety, but yet everyone who struggles feels so alone in the matter.
My daughter just turned one a few weeks ago. We had a huge party for her and a lot of family came into town for her party. I had such a hard time at her party. It wasn’t just the sadness that my baby was turning one. It was much harder than that. I had to excuse myself for a few minutes to cry. I don’t know what came over me. I felt so alone even though I was surrounded by family that loved me. I knew I was loved, but I didn’t feel like I was loved. I don’t know why I was so upset. Maybe I was just having one of those days. I don’t know. But the fact is living with depression is a daily struggle.
The thing about depression is it can sneak up on you. You can be feeling great one minute and then the next minute, you’re depressed. Sometimes something can happen to make you feel down. And other times, you just feel down for no reason. That’s what happened at Mackenzie’s party. I struggled with feeling down and I have no clue why. Honestly this happens on a weekly basis with me. There are just some days I feel down.
One thing I found helped me is having a list of people that I text when I am feeling alone and down. First I tell my husband Jake. Then I text my mom. Then I usually text Kassi or Emily asking for prayers. The days that I am really struggling I text those people and they all help me not feel so alone. The biggest thing you have to remember is to not live in silence. Suffering in silence is not an answer to pain. Don’t struggle in pain, you have to ask for help and you wont feel so alone. I want to remind you if your reading this, I can be on your list. Please reach out to me if you ever need someone to talk to.